fUn SiZe

fun comes in different forms, types, shapes, and sizes.
but to have a friend that claims fun, theres got to some be pretty good prizes.
haha see theres this person, who takes it a lil to much to heart: little.
as compared to me, she mite jus be a skittle.
but na na i dont mean her size,
i jus said she doesnt like to be critisized!
no no wat i mean is her sweetness bein there for a friend,
shes got it down wen it comes to someone else who cant comprehend,
even tho shes got the absolute worst hold over on her end.
shes really quite the person to hang around with,
trust me wen i say her reputation isnt no myth.
she likes to party, chill, relax,
and still have that intelligence to be in school and have all the facts.
her life is much like mine, theres really not much to say about that in this line.
itll take the whole character limit on this page, error.
shes gotten me into a couple of problems, all terror?
uhhh esther?... ahem ahem...,
haha not too serious of a problem, scared her.
she means well and nows that the best time comes with the best intentions,
she keeps the bond strong no tensions.
fun size is who tells me "keep ur head up mister",
i swear we could already be brother and sister,
and the fact that to make it official,
its gunna take me to finish my own part of a kind of ritual.
nothin gothic, nor emo,
its a mutual understanding u can try and find it, nemo.
itll soon be widely understood, ull know.
she mite be small, but shes got the the heart,
she mite be small, but shes got the soul,
she mite be small, but shes got the character,
dont refer to her as small tho, its a nose dive,
she'll pop her colla, and say: im fun size.

first step taken

so i start this walk with the first step taken, so walk with me, thinkin if im not mistaken,
the thoughts that flow through me can be urs for the takin...see..
my memories stored have more honey than the richest honey bee,
its rich and sweet with the troubles of a god forsaken cast away...
but please dont let that make u have ur thoughts sway,
my shit can all be portray but i promise i wont let it be foreplay,
raised from the lowest level of society to the highest level of ferocity,
ive become the soul greatest competitor, fighter, aggressive lover,
wat could have made me like this i wonder,
from a simple seed at age 2, came a rapid growth at times 5, unfortunately this is true.
moms had it she said lets go, wake up ur brothers and sister, i didnt know i was bein a lil slow,
saw the dog on the side of a big bus, and thought it was a field trip for us,
next i peeked thru a crack and then i knew,
it was 3 yrs b4 my dad said bless u after my ah cheww,
growin up i watched as the meanin of sufferin become a part of my last name,
seein as to how mothers dont give a fuck about wat others say and who they came,
she'll keep her foot down either shoe or bare, not even big foot could feel he could compare,
day n nite she works life like a shift, makin it easier it seems like im on some type a drift,
and wen u look into her face u could see the marks and scars laid down upon her by time's ever so greed for life to keep the hands moving,
u feel the only thing u could do is make sure the pencil produces A's from all the readin,
and thats the first step taken...tick tock...
tick tock im running amock
tick tock this girl says she wants my coh...
tick tock and school is still in stock
tick tock my heart feels heavy like a rock
tick tock i rmbr i mom bein struck
tick tock i feel like ive been on this block
tick tock im startin to feel stuck
tick tock...i took a breath....i spread my feathers... and now every1s lookin at this elegant peacock
see wen back in 06... biology, had a terrible toll on my fathers etymology,
his history and evolution was now but on hold as many others around the globe,
for a little cell, decided he was lonely, and made himself friends in my fathers left frontal lobe.
times were harsh, it seemed i was walkin through some kind of marsh,
the docs say my dad cant work, so whose gunna pay for the milk eggs and pork??
to this i day i dont know how she did it, no legal papers,she took care of business,
went both ways and scored touchdowns. even tho she didnt have all the fitness,
had to work but she said no stay in school i know u can do it,
put an example for ur brothers and sister she said, aint nothin to it.
turned out there was a lot to it, dropped in grades, brother started to blaze, shit even the beautiful, pure lil sister had the hangover daze.
i wanted things to go straight but as the latest a lot a shit have gone sideways.
tired of all the bullshit, tryin to bust the hard shit,
time to fuck the old things and start with the new ways.
look momma, i got them all A's.
ive become a monster, a killer, im the only thing im afraid of
never gave in, never gave up, cuz for one to overcome, is somethin to be proud of.
this is the first step taken...
take it with me..and we. have awaken.