Breathe

Take a breath.... deep... inhale the cold air... it cools your lungs, your rib cage, you feel everything inside as the cold treads your insides.... what do you feel?
sad, mad, bad, unsatisfied just a tad?
na, this is a different feeling.
more like something stuck, knotted, more like... something heavy.
this weight, this something holds me down and steady.
i think i'll take another breath... even deeper... i cant get my thought on it.
like an x-ray i search what i cant see.
like a sonar i search every detail to catch a glimpse, lets see...
nothing.
WHO could have nothing? WHAT could have happened that theres nothing? WHEN did this nothing happen? WHERE is something, anything?? WHY nothing??? HOW can there be nothing?
WHO WHAT WHEN WHERE WHY HOW????
So many questions, everybody asks questions, Ask Jeeves.
So many answers, everybody wants answers, pet peeves.
theres a glitch in the system, Microsoft.
my euphemism in my system, jacked up, aloft.
i feel i need to reboot, recharge, hit the shut down button and restart.
no need to find out what the problem is, no patience
i dont care what the problem is, could care less
i want the easy way out, less stress.
i dont want to live by those rules, should I?
i'll toss the ball and score a cup, no eye to eye.
fuck it, get messed up tonight to breathe a sigh.
get lost in the world, block my mind, stop time just to get by.
do it again tomorrow spread my wings and fly dont cut my high.
dont wanna think about it, its wack.
my best friend Daniels and... whats his name?? oh yea Jack.
1 2 3 4 5 ill be gone but ill be back.
Grey goose, swimming in Malibu,
new neighbors Mr. Smirr and who knows who(scoff).
theres no feeling, no knots, no care, no stress, no screams, no rage, no tears, no pain.
nothing.
all the laughter its deafening,
so many people its confining,
i need to get out, a lil breathing...
take a breath... deep... inhale the cold air... bring back to life the lungs from the warm daze... what do you feel?...
take another breath... even deeper...
my breath on the cold glass lingers for a while, more thoughts,
another breath fogs the glass, and another thought lingers,
my inner sonar has picked up the nothing.. and its everything but nothing.
its an immensity,
a compilation,
an overload,
its the everything meshed together, brought together, held together, fused together.
its this substance grown into immense proportions.
mutated and concentrated into this monster of sorts.
it felt like nothing but in reality there is something there of great magnitude.
heavy, solid, concentrated, profound, wicked, invasive, growing, impenetrable, quiet, cold..
i dont wanna feel like this anymore,
i wont take the easy way out of this core,
gunna push it to the limit, LOUD ROAR....
what is this i ask,
something to analyze, quite worthy of a task,
and the answer is clearer than day in which you all bask,
theres no confusion, no questions marks
no fear i dont mind swimming with any sharks,
fear me of who i am and who ive become, who i am destined to be,
its all really just a game, a real spelling bee,
your in it to win it, dont care about the L-O-V-E,
its a cold heart, cold soul, cold night, cold fight,
i guess that meteorologist nigguh actually, finally got it right...
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.